Today was pretty rough. I started off strong making 2 smoothies for breakfast and a snack. I was offered a cookie icecream sandwich and nearly gave in. I stayed strong though.
Lunch came around and they had black bean burgers in the Bistro. “They NEVER have these” I thought to myself. Luckily I hadn’t brought my money or else I probably would have given in. I enjoyed a black bean soup instead.
As my day came to a close, one of my drug craving struck, Taco Bell. All I could do is think about melted cheese sauce, beans, zesty seasonings. My mouth salivated and my heart began to race. I started to think to myself, “well I never got to have my final Taco Bell meal. I deserve this because I did so good today. If I only get this and that I’ll stay within my caloric intake.”
I was able to talk myself down and pass by without stopping. I arrived home and spent the next 20 minutes preparing guacamole. My bamboo IKEA bowl was now filled to the brim with delicious raw vegan healthy guacamole. I enjoyed it with some plantain chips and a small portion of raisins.
I’m really proud of myself that I have made it 2 days! I’m constantly battling those inner voices, the ones that tell you that “it’s ok to give in. You’ll do better tomorrow. No one will know. You deserve this.”
I hope the voices calm down as I become stronger.